Im confuse. Abt
life. Im not suppose to be like
this. Im not. Im drifting away. I used to be a nice kid. Yknow the one you see and know that shes a nice kid ? Now,even when i've done nothing wrong people says
Im bad,how pathetic,i know .
I dont know what to do with my family problems. I really really cant do this
alone. Im
weak. Too much happening. They can act like nothing is wrong,but i know deep inside my egoist family members,we are all
hurt. Well,i know i am. Its not fair. This is
not fair for me. Im only fourteen for god's sake. I
cant handle going to school and people just assume im bad,like how am i suppose to change with that kind of push ? I do have
feelings, i do. Maybe i laughed when people make fun of me,but trust me you do not know how i felt deep inside. Its like knowing im not good enough. I have to keep telling myself that no one is perfect. I fake smiles a lot. I cant remember the last time i actually felt happy yknow. I dont know who to trust,who to love. Cause i keep trusting people and telling them abt my problems,but some of them dont really care and some of them glad it happened.
But like Kakpi said, when i have harungi all this now,I'll be a much stronger person in the future.
Kak yott also said,happiness will come,I just have to be a bit more patient.
I just have to wish
a better for tomorrow aite ?
